physical..I wanna get physical, let's get into physical
Let me hear your body talk, your body talk, let me hear your body talk
All right, I realize I have just completely dated myself by typing those infamous words to Olivia Newton Johns' song Physical. It was in the early 80's? Maybe. I know that it was played everywhere and the video(who remembersGood Rockin' tonight on CBC with Stu Jeffries?) was scandalous.
Ah well....those were the days. Fortunately the skin tight bodysuit and leotard with leg warmers is no longer how we dress to go to the gym. If that were the case everyone there would have run from the building screaming in terror as I walked in the doors. Instead I was in my shorts, my trust old work out t-shirt and my good runners. It was time to get physical. And physical I did get. I started with a 10 minute warm up on the stair climber. Then I switched over to my weight program. After the first interval, I did another 10 minutes of cardio by using the rower and then back to my last interval of weights. I was cooling down on the Elliptical when my husband came up to get me.
Revitalized and rejuvenated I had to wonder why I had put off going to the gym for so long. It's been a really long time since I was there and I felt so GOOD when I was done!
Of course last night, I pulled a typical Katie move and while reaching into the cupboard bottom shelf, I managed to twist myself into a pretzel and hurt my neck. I think I've strained the muscles. It honestly feels like whiplash. I don't know how I did it, but I did. So alas, today I didn't go to the gym. I am simply too stiff and sore in my neck area, the silliest things hurt, like sneezing (hello allergies!), picking up a pot, petting the dog. All these silly mundane things are hurting me today so I'm going to take it easy today, but alas tomorrow I will be back at the gym! Nothing is holding me back now. Absolutely nothing!
Weigh in was yesterday, and I'm happy to advise you that I was down 1.4 pounds. YEAH ME!
We're back on track and loving every minute it of. Here I am being accountable so we may as well just get yesterday's activity on the page so to speak.
Activity Dog Walk
Duration 50 min
Distance 6ish km's.
Heart Rate. Don't know forget to start it.
Activity Gym Work out
Duration 50min, 35 sec
Time in zone 47min, 02 sec
AVG Heart Rate 128
Max Heart Rate 149
Calories burned 624
Have a super day everyone!
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Feeling the Burn
I am feeling the burn today! Wahoo! First off was weigh in. It sucked, I'm up three pounds. I'm not happy about it. I think I know why so I'm not going to obcess over it. That's just the way it is.
My husband and I went on our first bike ride together today. I was so excited about it. Now, I am in now way, shape or form as good a rider as my husband. Let's face it. It's hard for a 280ish person to be as light and fly on a bike as their 170ish counter part so I know that I'm going to be moving slower, but I tell ya. My husband flies on his bike. It's amazing the speed he gets. When we were going down hill he led the way, when we got to the flat parts I led. I eventually has to tell him to go on without me, I was going to wait here for a few minutes and then turn around.
My legs were killing me! They were burning like nobody's business. I wore my heart rate monitor and it was working hard to keep up with my beating heart, let me tell you! We live in an area with some substantial hills and I don't mind telling you I worked my buns off to get up them.
There is one hill that I havne't been able to make it up yet. That is my goal, to be able to come around the corner at South Parallel Road, turn right and make it up that darned hill.
I worked hard today, I was huffing and puffing, giving myself pep talks as I struggled up that last darned hill but I did it!
Today's Road tally. 5.8km's 35min, 40 seconds, AHR 154bpm, MHR 180bpm(That was coming up the last hill, I thought my chest was going to explode!;-)
It was a great ride. I'm looking forward to the day when I can do that ride in under 30minutes with an AHR(average heart rate) of below 140. It will come, I just have to keep working at it.
For all of you Mother's out there, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!
My husband and I went on our first bike ride together today. I was so excited about it. Now, I am in now way, shape or form as good a rider as my husband. Let's face it. It's hard for a 280ish person to be as light and fly on a bike as their 170ish counter part so I know that I'm going to be moving slower, but I tell ya. My husband flies on his bike. It's amazing the speed he gets. When we were going down hill he led the way, when we got to the flat parts I led. I eventually has to tell him to go on without me, I was going to wait here for a few minutes and then turn around.
My legs were killing me! They were burning like nobody's business. I wore my heart rate monitor and it was working hard to keep up with my beating heart, let me tell you! We live in an area with some substantial hills and I don't mind telling you I worked my buns off to get up them.
There is one hill that I havne't been able to make it up yet. That is my goal, to be able to come around the corner at South Parallel Road, turn right and make it up that darned hill.
I worked hard today, I was huffing and puffing, giving myself pep talks as I struggled up that last darned hill but I did it!
Today's Road tally. 5.8km's 35min, 40 seconds, AHR 154bpm, MHR 180bpm(That was coming up the last hill, I thought my chest was going to explode!;-)
It was a great ride. I'm looking forward to the day when I can do that ride in under 30minutes with an AHR(average heart rate) of below 140. It will come, I just have to keep working at it.
For all of you Mother's out there, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!
Monday, May 3, 2010
Riding...Riding....Riding....
I'm really enjoying riding! I really am, when I got home from work tonight, the rain of the past few days was done and I decided to get on my bike and go for a ride. Now, even though it is MAY, someone forgot to tell mother nature and it is frigging cold out there. None the less, I bundled up, long sleeved shirt, under a short sleeved shirt with a jacket on top, long pants, my helmet and off I went. It was exhilirating. I'm loving it. I went down our horseshoe to the right, turned right onto Old Yale road, turned right onto Whatcom road, right onto South Parallel Road, Left onto Old Yale Road, and around Delair park, turned right back onto Old Yale road and finally turned right onto the second half of our horseshoe.
I don't actually know how long I was gone. I didn't look at the time when I left, I do know that the Canucks game had just gone into the first between period segment and when I got back they were about 5 minutes or so into the 2nd period.
I DO know that I worked my buns off. I did have to get off the bike at one point and push it up one of the hills. I just plum ran out of steam! The wind was in my face and I was pedaling for all I was worth but I didn't seem to get anywhere. So, I got off, and walked my bike to the top of the first hill. Got back on at the flat portion, built up my speed and made it up the rest of the hill, including the hill leading up to our complex.
I couldn't beleive how hard it was. Bike riding used to be so easy! At the Gym I can get on a stationary bike and go for a half an hour, or forty five minutes. However, in the real world, on a real road, with REAL hills, and REAL wind blowing in your face, it is so much more difficult.
Here I sit 4 hours later and my legs are still throbbing and are all jello feeling. I know that I was huffing and puffing when I got home, I was sweating up a storm when I got home as well. The next bike ride, I'm going to wear my heart rate monitor so that I can see just how intense my ride really is!
I don't actually know how long I was gone. I didn't look at the time when I left, I do know that the Canucks game had just gone into the first between period segment and when I got back they were about 5 minutes or so into the 2nd period.
I DO know that I worked my buns off. I did have to get off the bike at one point and push it up one of the hills. I just plum ran out of steam! The wind was in my face and I was pedaling for all I was worth but I didn't seem to get anywhere. So, I got off, and walked my bike to the top of the first hill. Got back on at the flat portion, built up my speed and made it up the rest of the hill, including the hill leading up to our complex.
I couldn't beleive how hard it was. Bike riding used to be so easy! At the Gym I can get on a stationary bike and go for a half an hour, or forty five minutes. However, in the real world, on a real road, with REAL hills, and REAL wind blowing in your face, it is so much more difficult.
Here I sit 4 hours later and my legs are still throbbing and are all jello feeling. I know that I was huffing and puffing when I got home, I was sweating up a storm when I got home as well. The next bike ride, I'm going to wear my heart rate monitor so that I can see just how intense my ride really is!
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Love it when a plan comes together!
I really do like it when a plan come together. Nothing is more satisfying than making a plan and at the end of the day it all comes together and everything turns out better than you had hoped.
You see, my husband used to have a road bike. When we first met, he would go on these 3 hour bike rides and thoroughly enjoy them. When he moved to be closer to me, when we got engaged, he moved into an apartment and unfortunately the bike was stolen off his third floor balcony. We never did find out how the heck they did it, but they did.
Flash forward to last week, we knew that we were getting money back from our taxes. You have to like it when the government gives you some of your money back. It's really nice when they do that and low and behold the money popped into our bank account. So we had several discussions on what we would like to do with oure refunds and I made the suggestion that we get bikes. We can go on rides together, it will get us outdoors, fresh air and it's good for us!
When I was a teenager I loved my bike. I had a ten speed bike that I took everywhere, I would go riding for hours and hours. It was great! I was hoping that I would still have that wonderful feeling if we got bikes.
Well! Guess what....we got our bikes yesterday!!!! Mine is lovely purple color, it fits me just right. It has 24 gears(I have no idea what to do with all of them!), and it has a nice wide comfy seat. I got a Trek 7200WSD. Here is a picture from their website.
We bought our bikes and stopped by my parents house to show them our new purchase. I got on my bike and rode around my old neighbourhood and it was exhilarating! I loved the feel of the pedals, I loved the wind blowing in my face. It was AWESOME!!! I so enjoyed it.
You know that old saying "It's like riding a bike, you never forget how?" Well that was me yesterday. I was a little nervous, I'm a lot heavier now than I was then, but it was great! I had a wobbly start but I did good, no crashes!
I was hoping to go for a bike ride this morning before I had to go to work, however, living on the Wet Coast of Canada, it was pouring this morning. Maybe tonight, after dinner....I can't wait to hit the road and feel the wind on my face!
You see, my husband used to have a road bike. When we first met, he would go on these 3 hour bike rides and thoroughly enjoy them. When he moved to be closer to me, when we got engaged, he moved into an apartment and unfortunately the bike was stolen off his third floor balcony. We never did find out how the heck they did it, but they did.
Flash forward to last week, we knew that we were getting money back from our taxes. You have to like it when the government gives you some of your money back. It's really nice when they do that and low and behold the money popped into our bank account. So we had several discussions on what we would like to do with oure refunds and I made the suggestion that we get bikes. We can go on rides together, it will get us outdoors, fresh air and it's good for us!
When I was a teenager I loved my bike. I had a ten speed bike that I took everywhere, I would go riding for hours and hours. It was great! I was hoping that I would still have that wonderful feeling if we got bikes.
Well! Guess what....we got our bikes yesterday!!!! Mine is lovely purple color, it fits me just right. It has 24 gears(I have no idea what to do with all of them!), and it has a nice wide comfy seat. I got a Trek 7200WSD. Here is a picture from their website.
We bought our bikes and stopped by my parents house to show them our new purchase. I got on my bike and rode around my old neighbourhood and it was exhilarating! I loved the feel of the pedals, I loved the wind blowing in my face. It was AWESOME!!! I so enjoyed it.
You know that old saying "It's like riding a bike, you never forget how?" Well that was me yesterday. I was a little nervous, I'm a lot heavier now than I was then, but it was great! I had a wobbly start but I did good, no crashes!
I was hoping to go for a bike ride this morning before I had to go to work, however, living on the Wet Coast of Canada, it was pouring this morning. Maybe tonight, after dinner....I can't wait to hit the road and feel the wind on my face!
Good day!
I'm a little late posting this week. I had a great day though. First thing is first. Weigh-in. I was the same, no heavier, no lighter but I'm good with that. I still haven't managed to get myself back into the groove of going to the gym. I really do need to get to the gym!
I know that once I get the umption in my gumption and get going again, I will feel better about it and I will be happy about it. I know it is a mind set and I just HAVE to do it! I know that, I really honestly do but I just haven't gotten there.
I don't know why this is, I actually think it's ironic. Most people when they go on holidays worry about not getting in a good workout, they drop down their physical activity. I went on my holiday and hit the gym 90% of the time. I get home, and I haven't gotten to the gym once yet.
I know, I know. It make no sense what so ever, BUT hopefully if something comes together as my husband and I are hoping it will. I will be getting lost of outdoor activity. More about that later....Have a great day everyone!
I know that once I get the umption in my gumption and get going again, I will feel better about it and I will be happy about it. I know it is a mind set and I just HAVE to do it! I know that, I really honestly do but I just haven't gotten there.
I don't know why this is, I actually think it's ironic. Most people when they go on holidays worry about not getting in a good workout, they drop down their physical activity. I went on my holiday and hit the gym 90% of the time. I get home, and I haven't gotten to the gym once yet.
I know, I know. It make no sense what so ever, BUT hopefully if something comes together as my husband and I are hoping it will. I will be getting lost of outdoor activity. More about that later....Have a great day everyone!
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Weekly Weigh in....
yes...it is weigh in day today! I have to tell you, I was excited about it, I know that I've been really good with my points this week. I know that I haven't gotten a lot of activity in due to the blister on the bottom of my foot, but I did get out and move. I walked the dog a few times, I danced around the living room with my hubby. I moved this body of mine and it paid off!!!
I am down 2.2 pounds today.
I am HAPPY about that.
I am HAPPY that I am back on track.
I am HAPPY that it is Saturday!
I am happy with the progress that I have made with my life.
I am actually so happy with it that I'm ready to share my first before and after pictures with you. You see this journey for me actually started in 2004.
In December of 2003, my sister took my mother and I over to Victoria to celebrate my birthday. I had never been over to the Island before and this was my very first trip. When we got home, my sister sent me the pictures, and one particular picture was of my mom and I standing at the car in the ferry line up. For the first time in my life I realized I had a problem. At first glance I didn't realize that it was me. I didn't recognize myself. It was then that I realized how heavy I was and it terrified me. In January 2003 I joined my first gym ever and I joined weight watchers and started on my weight loss journey. There's been a lot of bumps in the road in the past few years. My car accident five years ago set me back huge. I was in physio for over a year, however, in June of 2009, I decided to get my crap together and get back on the weight loss journey.
So here it is....the picture that started my journey so many years ago.
And this is where I am now, this was taken at lunch time on day two of the Weekend to End Women's cancers in Vancouver, I was 48km's into the walk, and danged proud of myself.
Now some of you may be saying, but Katie you're still really heavy. I am, I readily admit I am still heavy, but I can't help to wonder how much heavier I would be if I hadn't done something then, if I hadn't taken charge of my life. Of my weight. Yes I am heavy. I still have somehwere around 90 pounds to lose. BUT, I'm here, I'm alive! I don't know if I could say the same for the Katie in the first picture.
I am HAPPY to be here!
I am down 2.2 pounds today.
I am HAPPY about that.
I am HAPPY that I am back on track.
I am HAPPY that it is Saturday!
I am happy with the progress that I have made with my life.
I am actually so happy with it that I'm ready to share my first before and after pictures with you. You see this journey for me actually started in 2004.
In December of 2003, my sister took my mother and I over to Victoria to celebrate my birthday. I had never been over to the Island before and this was my very first trip. When we got home, my sister sent me the pictures, and one particular picture was of my mom and I standing at the car in the ferry line up. For the first time in my life I realized I had a problem. At first glance I didn't realize that it was me. I didn't recognize myself. It was then that I realized how heavy I was and it terrified me. In January 2003 I joined my first gym ever and I joined weight watchers and started on my weight loss journey. There's been a lot of bumps in the road in the past few years. My car accident five years ago set me back huge. I was in physio for over a year, however, in June of 2009, I decided to get my crap together and get back on the weight loss journey.
So here it is....the picture that started my journey so many years ago.
And this is where I am now, this was taken at lunch time on day two of the Weekend to End Women's cancers in Vancouver, I was 48km's into the walk, and danged proud of myself.
Now some of you may be saying, but Katie you're still really heavy. I am, I readily admit I am still heavy, but I can't help to wonder how much heavier I would be if I hadn't done something then, if I hadn't taken charge of my life. Of my weight. Yes I am heavy. I still have somehwere around 90 pounds to lose. BUT, I'm here, I'm alive! I don't know if I could say the same for the Katie in the first picture.
I am HAPPY to be here!
Close Call
I had a close call yesterday, a very, very close call yesterday. It's brought back a whole bunch of really bad emotions for me and I'm doing my best to deal with it and not fall back onto food. The good thing is, we are all o.k. It brought back flashes from 5 years ago and I had a rough night sleeping last night. I know that everything is all right, but I still kept playing the "what if" game in my head during the night.
After dinner last night, we decided to go for a drive, so my husband, dog and I all piled into my car for a drive. We ended up stopping for Ice Cream at one of the local country dairy farms and we were driving back along the country road on our way home.
The road is a fairly straight road, and yes some people tend to speed on it, I saw the car coming, I could see it was speeding, and then I noticed that she was drifting onto my side of the road. She had her left turn blinker on, but she wasn't slowing down. I lay on my horn and swerved to avoid her, she saw us and straightened out but not before some damage was done.
She knocked off my drivers side mirror and we appear to have exchanged paint from the hood to the trunk.
I am very grateful that it wasn't a more serious accident. I'm not taking anything for granted and one of the first things my husband and I did today after work, was to go to our local pet store. Why there you ask? We got our dog a harness that hooks through the seat belt. Angus comes on our drives all the time, he loves nothing better than a Car Ride. I want him to be as safe as my husband and I are.
So please, if you have an animal that you take in your vehicle, go to your pet store and invest 30.00 in a harness that will not only ensure that the dog can't jump out a window, but it will also keep them safe and sound if they were to be involved in an accident.
Trust me, your cuddly critters will be thankful!
After dinner last night, we decided to go for a drive, so my husband, dog and I all piled into my car for a drive. We ended up stopping for Ice Cream at one of the local country dairy farms and we were driving back along the country road on our way home.
The road is a fairly straight road, and yes some people tend to speed on it, I saw the car coming, I could see it was speeding, and then I noticed that she was drifting onto my side of the road. She had her left turn blinker on, but she wasn't slowing down. I lay on my horn and swerved to avoid her, she saw us and straightened out but not before some damage was done.
She knocked off my drivers side mirror and we appear to have exchanged paint from the hood to the trunk.
I am very grateful that it wasn't a more serious accident. I'm not taking anything for granted and one of the first things my husband and I did today after work, was to go to our local pet store. Why there you ask? We got our dog a harness that hooks through the seat belt. Angus comes on our drives all the time, he loves nothing better than a Car Ride. I want him to be as safe as my husband and I are.
So please, if you have an animal that you take in your vehicle, go to your pet store and invest 30.00 in a harness that will not only ensure that the dog can't jump out a window, but it will also keep them safe and sound if they were to be involved in an accident.
Trust me, your cuddly critters will be thankful!
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
WOW!!
You guys are awesome. I'm here and I'm getting myself back into my routine. This has actually been a really good week and I've been debating what to post and how to explain my absence. Today I received two comments and two e-mails from people asking me where I was. You guys are AWESOME, thank you for the push and getting me back to blogging.
The truth of the matter is....Katie fell off the wagon, fell on her head and lost all her senses!
The good part...the damage wasn't that bad. I gained two pounds, then lost one pound. So over all...not a bad fall off.
Now...however is climbing back into the wagon and getting back into the activity, to get my body moving again. I'm back on track with my eating. I'm tracking my food, I'm using my points sensibly. I'm doing good there.
Activity on the other hand. I still need a good swift kick in the pants to get me back up to full speed. BUT I'm almost there. You see we had some friends over on the weekend for dinner and then for the men to watch "THE GAME" in this house right now, it's any hockey play off game in any league that is on TV. So while the men headed down to the man cave to yell and scream at the TV and referee's who can't possibly hear them, us ladies sat upstairs talking.
It was a great conversation on what we've both learned about nutrition and exercise over the past several months. During the course of the conversation, it was mentioned that our friend's walking partner was injured and she has no one to walk with. I volunteered to walk with her so on Monday night, after work, before dinner, we headed over to their house where we proceeded to walk at a (for me) very fast past, up hills, down hills, UUUUUPPPPP a hill and then down a hill. A good forty five minute walk, my husband was sweating, I was a little breathless from the pace but we did good. Bad news...I had a pebble in my shoe and I now have a HUGE blister on the ball of my foot.
Did any of you see the English movie. RUN FAT BOY RUN? It was a fabulous movie and it was funny, but there's this one scene where the character gets a huge blister on the sole of his foot? Without a word of a lie, that is the size of this sucker on my foot!
This morning there was no way I could go walking with that blister, so my husband called and we cancelled the walk...well, wouldn't you know it, despite my best efforts to protect it, blister bandages, gauze and tape. The darned thing burst this afternoon. So...I didn't go over to their house to go for our walk, however I did get out and about and I took the dog for a quick walk around our block two times. Pretty good, it equals two km's.
So...long story short....
Eating Right- Check
Moving the body - Check
Back on Track - Check
Feeling good about it- Check Check and Check.
Until tomorrow everyone...have an awesome day!
The truth of the matter is....Katie fell off the wagon, fell on her head and lost all her senses!
The good part...the damage wasn't that bad. I gained two pounds, then lost one pound. So over all...not a bad fall off.
Now...however is climbing back into the wagon and getting back into the activity, to get my body moving again. I'm back on track with my eating. I'm tracking my food, I'm using my points sensibly. I'm doing good there.
Activity on the other hand. I still need a good swift kick in the pants to get me back up to full speed. BUT I'm almost there. You see we had some friends over on the weekend for dinner and then for the men to watch "THE GAME" in this house right now, it's any hockey play off game in any league that is on TV. So while the men headed down to the man cave to yell and scream at the TV and referee's who can't possibly hear them, us ladies sat upstairs talking.
It was a great conversation on what we've both learned about nutrition and exercise over the past several months. During the course of the conversation, it was mentioned that our friend's walking partner was injured and she has no one to walk with. I volunteered to walk with her so on Monday night, after work, before dinner, we headed over to their house where we proceeded to walk at a (for me) very fast past, up hills, down hills, UUUUUPPPPP a hill and then down a hill. A good forty five minute walk, my husband was sweating, I was a little breathless from the pace but we did good. Bad news...I had a pebble in my shoe and I now have a HUGE blister on the ball of my foot.
Did any of you see the English movie. RUN FAT BOY RUN? It was a fabulous movie and it was funny, but there's this one scene where the character gets a huge blister on the sole of his foot? Without a word of a lie, that is the size of this sucker on my foot!
This morning there was no way I could go walking with that blister, so my husband called and we cancelled the walk...well, wouldn't you know it, despite my best efforts to protect it, blister bandages, gauze and tape. The darned thing burst this afternoon. So...I didn't go over to their house to go for our walk, however I did get out and about and I took the dog for a quick walk around our block two times. Pretty good, it equals two km's.
So...long story short....
Eating Right- Check
Moving the body - Check
Back on Track - Check
Feeling good about it- Check Check and Check.
Until tomorrow everyone...have an awesome day!
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Why oh why?
Do I do this to myself? I do it and I instantly regret it and then I do it again!!!!
Let me start at the beginning here....I went to weigh in today. I didn't lose, I didn't gain, I maintained this week. I'm very happy with that considering I didn't go to the gym at all this past week. Physically I just couldn't do it. I'm still fighting whatever this stomach thing is. According to my doctor(who I saw on Thursday) I had e-coli. We have no idea where I got it from, where I picked it up from. But there you had it.
You would think that after being nauseated several times a day, fighting to keep your food in your stomach by having to take slow deep breaths, now that I'm feeling better I would eat proper. I didn't have to fight not to throw up this morning, and the back door trotts seem to have ended so you would think I would eat properly! You would think so wouldn't you?
Not today. Today was not a good food day for me. I don't like admiting it, but that's all part of being accountable here. So here is my being accountable today for my food.
I didn't eat breakfast before weigh in. I never do, came home, saw the accountant to do our taxes up. Went to Buckerfields to get the 1/2 wine barrels for the garden they had on sale. Came home, putzed around and then decided to go up to Zellers to get some soil and peat moss to fill said barrel up. I get in the car and head out and what do I do? What do I do? I go to MCDONALDS!!!!! I was in the drive thru, ordering the sausage and egg mcmuffin and a hashbrown before I even realized what the heck I was doing. I ate it on the way to Zellers and threw the garbage out there. I can't believe I did it!
After realizing what I had done, you would think I would get control of myself and do good the rest of the day. Did I? Heck NO!!! In my little mind, I've screwed up majorly so why not keep at it? So after getting all the planting done for the day,I headed out to the grocery store this afternoon, finding myself hungry what did I do? I went to BURGER KING!!!! I HATE Burger King! I don't know what the heck I was I doing. I ordered the Junior whopper with cheese and an onion rings. Ate that in the car and threw the garbage out at the grocery store. No evidence I did it so no proof right?
What the heck!!! At this point, most reasonable people would get their crap together, give their head a shake and get over it. Did I? What do you think? OF COURSE NOT!!!! After dinner, around eight or so, my husband wanted to go for a treat so we go to Afterthoughts. A wonderful desert restaurant. I didn't really want anything, so why did I order something? What did I order you ask? I ordered their Mint Chocolate Chip Cake! Four layers of chocolate cake filled with mint cream icing between the layers finished off with extra whip cream!!!
I came home, I ate some of it, put it down, a half hour later, ate some more, put it down and now I've finished off the darned cake I didn't want and didn't need.
Why oh why do I do this to myself? I'm now sitting here, angry at myself, nauseated and bloated feeling like crap. ARRRGGGHHH!!!
Let me start at the beginning here....I went to weigh in today. I didn't lose, I didn't gain, I maintained this week. I'm very happy with that considering I didn't go to the gym at all this past week. Physically I just couldn't do it. I'm still fighting whatever this stomach thing is. According to my doctor(who I saw on Thursday) I had e-coli. We have no idea where I got it from, where I picked it up from. But there you had it.
You would think that after being nauseated several times a day, fighting to keep your food in your stomach by having to take slow deep breaths, now that I'm feeling better I would eat proper. I didn't have to fight not to throw up this morning, and the back door trotts seem to have ended so you would think I would eat properly! You would think so wouldn't you?
Not today. Today was not a good food day for me. I don't like admiting it, but that's all part of being accountable here. So here is my being accountable today for my food.
I didn't eat breakfast before weigh in. I never do, came home, saw the accountant to do our taxes up. Went to Buckerfields to get the 1/2 wine barrels for the garden they had on sale. Came home, putzed around and then decided to go up to Zellers to get some soil and peat moss to fill said barrel up. I get in the car and head out and what do I do? What do I do? I go to MCDONALDS!!!!! I was in the drive thru, ordering the sausage and egg mcmuffin and a hashbrown before I even realized what the heck I was doing. I ate it on the way to Zellers and threw the garbage out there. I can't believe I did it!
After realizing what I had done, you would think I would get control of myself and do good the rest of the day. Did I? Heck NO!!! In my little mind, I've screwed up majorly so why not keep at it? So after getting all the planting done for the day,I headed out to the grocery store this afternoon, finding myself hungry what did I do? I went to BURGER KING!!!! I HATE Burger King! I don't know what the heck I was I doing. I ordered the Junior whopper with cheese and an onion rings. Ate that in the car and threw the garbage out at the grocery store. No evidence I did it so no proof right?
What the heck!!! At this point, most reasonable people would get their crap together, give their head a shake and get over it. Did I? What do you think? OF COURSE NOT!!!! After dinner, around eight or so, my husband wanted to go for a treat so we go to Afterthoughts. A wonderful desert restaurant. I didn't really want anything, so why did I order something? What did I order you ask? I ordered their Mint Chocolate Chip Cake! Four layers of chocolate cake filled with mint cream icing between the layers finished off with extra whip cream!!!
I came home, I ate some of it, put it down, a half hour later, ate some more, put it down and now I've finished off the darned cake I didn't want and didn't need.
Why oh why do I do this to myself? I'm now sitting here, angry at myself, nauseated and bloated feeling like crap. ARRRGGGHHH!!!
Saturday, March 27, 2010
Day of Reckoning.
All right, today is weigh in day, but to give you a little bit of background. We got back from our trip on Tuesday night, all was well, Wednesday spent the day doing laundry, grocery shopping and getting ready to go back to work on Thursday. Woke up about 2am on Thursday morning really not feeling well, began throwing up and running to the washroom. I couldn't stop the waterworks so 14 hours later we ended up at the hospital where I had to be given 5 bags of IV Fluids. A few injections of gravol and I was sent home six hours later. Spent Friday in bed, still running to the bathroom constantly but no longer throwing up. YEAH! Today I'm feeling a lot better but still not up to going to work.
I debated going to weigh in, not sure if I should or not but my husband decided he would drive me up and wait for me and bring me home. I went to weigh in and discovered that I lost 4.2 pounds. DOWN 4.2 pounds! Normally I would be ecstatic about that kind of a loss but I'm wondering how much of it is a false loss. Do you know what I mean? When you haven't been able to retain any liquids or food for 36 hours, how much of that weight loss is really a loss?
It's something I have to think upon and honestly I'm already mentally preparing myself for a gain next week as I get better and start to eat and drink again. We'll see though. If I manage to maintain or lose next week, then we'll do the happy dance.
For now, I'll say yeah, and I'm heading back to my bed for a little while. It's amazing how worn out a person gets running to the washroom, isn't it?
I debated going to weigh in, not sure if I should or not but my husband decided he would drive me up and wait for me and bring me home. I went to weigh in and discovered that I lost 4.2 pounds. DOWN 4.2 pounds! Normally I would be ecstatic about that kind of a loss but I'm wondering how much of it is a false loss. Do you know what I mean? When you haven't been able to retain any liquids or food for 36 hours, how much of that weight loss is really a loss?
It's something I have to think upon and honestly I'm already mentally preparing myself for a gain next week as I get better and start to eat and drink again. We'll see though. If I manage to maintain or lose next week, then we'll do the happy dance.
For now, I'll say yeah, and I'm heading back to my bed for a little while. It's amazing how worn out a person gets running to the washroom, isn't it?
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